Enjoying the End

Sitting in the nursery.

Gestating.

I still can't believe how lucky I am, I have had a wonderful, easy pregnancy. I read enough online threads to know that many people are quite miserable and really suffer through most of their pregnancy, and I take my hat off to those mommas. They make me really thankful to not be one of them!

Pregnancy has certainly been the strangest thing I've ever done in my life. I've always wondered what it was like to be pregnant, and now that I'm at the end of my pregnancy I'm still not sure how to wrap my head around it. It still doesn't seem possible that there is a little human inside of me, even though I have felt her moving around in there for the last five months or so. It's such a natural process, yet still seems so foreign. It is amazing to watch your body morph out of your control. I don't feel like I have done done anything special but put up with the changes and observe my body doing it's thing all on its own.

It has gone by really quickly, and yet it's hard for me to remember what is was like to have a flat stomach that didn't restrict my movements. Nine months is a long time. But it's just the beginning of a lifetime of parenthood. It's a relief to get to the end, but really it is the ultimate beginning of the biggest commitment I'll ever make. I'm going to be a mom. Any day now.

I have been feeling many opposites all at once. I am so ready to meet her, but I've been also cherishing these last days of alone time with Tyler. The peace, the quiet, the calm. But I'm ready for the roller-coaster too! I am so excited for the wild ride to come.

I know I already love this little lady who's in my belly, but she's still a stranger. Even though my body has been building her, I need a formal introduction. And I'm ready for it whenever it will be. I've been feeling very calm and positive and even looking forward to labor. She will come when she's ready, and although I am hoping she comes sooner rather than later, I am trusting my body because it has done a top notch job so far.

I'm sitting here rocking in the nursery watching the snow fall outside the window. We have classical music playing in the background, there's a final little load of baby things washing, and Tyler is busy packing his hospital bag.

My world is about to change in incredible ways, but right now? Life feels so good.

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